Week 20 – Monday-Sunday
Monday 7th – Sunday 13th November 2005 Monday:
HALF WAY! We’re half way there! From now on we can count down rather than up if the fancy takes us. Rather than being 20 weeks pregnant I can say there’s 20 weeks to go!
Every hour today felt like an hour I had to endure in order to get to the end of the day, in order to get to the end of the week, in order to get to next week and The Scan.
I really don’t want to be obsessive about this or worry myself into a stupor but I am really am worried about this. I need distraction I think, I need stuff to take my mind of it all…shopping, that’s what I need. Well, my jeans are a bit too tight for my growing bump after all, I could do with some new ones… Tuesday and Wednesday:
The last two days have been exhausting. Tuesday was emotionally draining as Hubby and I had our first full-on fight in a long long time. We resolved it of course, with a lot of talking and tears and we’re stronger than ever, but my goodness it was draining. On Wednesday, on my way to a meeting on the other side of London, I got stuck on the central line for 45 minutes when the doors on the train I was on broke. I am SO thankful that I had a seat as I would literally have keeled over had I been standing, fortunately luck was on my side. After a long and difficult meeting and a long hard afternoon at work Hubby and I had to spend the evening running around dealing with birthday presents, as well as picking up a garden canopy from my mum’s for a friend’s 30th birthday party on Saturday.
I was exhausted beyond description by the time the day was out. As I slumped wearily into bed without an ounce of energy left in my body I began to realize that my mum’s right – I am doing too much. I am 20 weeks pregnant for goodness sake, I should be letting other people take on some of life’s responsibilities for a while, it’s time for me to have a break. Thursday:
Today’s events made me realize further that now is the time to slow down. I feel light-headed all the time and I am completely exhausted. Work is incredibly busy and I found out during a monthly meeting with my line manager that I am the lowest paid PA in the organisation. This is a real revelation as I am also the busiest and one of the most experienced. It made me wonder what I slog my guts out for on a daily basis. I get good feedback and everyone seems delighted with the job I do and how well I do it, which is good to hear as I am somewhat of a perfectionist so I like to hear I am doing well. But at the end of the day, rest is key at the moment so I am not going to beat myself up over my own deadlines, I am not going to say yes to cheeky requests from others trying to palm off work on me, and I am going to remember that the baby and my health are a damn sight more important than work. Friday:
Friday at long last. Being at work was almost painful as I willed the hours and minutes to pass so I could get out at 4.30pm, get stuck into Prima Baby on the tube and race home to a dinner of salmon and mustard-mash prepared for me by my lovely hubby. I even treated myself to a glass of chilled dry white wine, a welcome treat at the end of a long and hard week. It’s been a tough week, emotionally and physically draining. But at least it has taught me to slow down. And in a way it has distracted me from worrying about the 20 week scan, which is now just five days away. It’s always been there at the back of my mind, but at least the time has passed relatively quickly. Saturday:
I woke up early, around 6.30am and lay listening to the silence. It’s unusual for there to be silence, surrounded as we are on all sides by neighbours who are not exactly quiet. 6.30am on a Saturday is about the only time peace descends upon our little block of flats. I got up around 7am and watched Discovery Home and Health for a while, enjoying my own company. I get irritated and claustrophobic very easily recently so I like to be on my own for a bit at the start of the day sometimes. My Dad and step-mum came over with my sister and her boyfriend and we all went out for some lunch, which was really lovely. Then in the evening we went to our friend Si’s 30th birthday party. We left at midnight, about two and half hours past my usual recent bedtimes! I was quite impressed with my stamina! I ended the night eating birthday cake in bed watching You’ve Got Mail, whilst Hubby snored drunkenly beside me! Sunday:
Today was my day to Do Nothing. Hubby left instructions for me to do absolutely nothing all day, which is something I actually find really difficult to do. But I did very well and only hung up one set of washing. When Hubby got back from footie we went for a walk through the forest and stopped at the tea-hut for a hot chocolate and to watch all the families with their dogs. Dogs really are very amusing, they do such silly things, I can’t wait to have one one day, but not just yet, we have to master the art of having a baby first I think! It was nice to spend some time with Hubby away from the flat, away from everything and just walk and be together and chat. Hubby took my Week 20 piccy by the lake in front of the tea-hut – how’s that for a bump?! I am very happy to be entering into Week 21 at last. The scan is on Wednesday and I am looking forward to getting it behind us with hopefully a positive outcome.
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Five Months Old - Friday 1st September 2006
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