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Week 29 - Wednesday-Sunday Weds 11th January - Sunday 15th January 2006 Wednesday: I have never been so unmotivated at work. I can't take on any major tasks because I am leaving at the end of February to start my maternity leave. As a result I am not very busy, I have stuff to do but it is all too easy to leave it festering on my desk whilst I play about on the internet reading about breastfeeding etc. Speaking of breastfeeding, I watched the free DVD that came with my Avent Breastpump last night. Oh. My. God. I was so disturbed I made Hubby watch it when he got back from football but he just laughed at the serene looking woman with a pump attached to each breast happily pumping away. I don't know how I am going to cope with this. But I shall give it my best shot. My worst fear really is that it is going to hurt, I'm quite squeamish about the thought of crusty nipples etc. In fact it's the breastfeeding that's worrying me more than the thought of labour to be honest. I have taken to spending my evenings either cleaning out drawers, cupboards and whole rooms in a mad tidying/decluttering frenzy, or sitting in the comfy chair in the living room with a duvet, knitting my fluffy pink hat and drinking caffeine-free tea. I alternate depending on how little energy I have at the end of my working day. Hubby has been amazing the last couple of weeks - he is doing so much around the house - cooking, cleaning etc. I can't begin to describe what a major help it is. He even remembers to replace the toilet roll when it runs out. I am so lucky. Erica texted me yesterday to tell me she got engaged, which is very exciting news. She's marrying Lee in the summer in Boston (where she lives) and it's all so romantic, they met years ago online so it's such a lovely happy ending! *sigh* I do love a good wedding (even though I won't be there!) Thursday: My husband is truly the world's greatest, he is being so unbelievably helpful and brilliant lately. Last night he cooked up the loveliest salmon and mash with courgettes and peppers, it was gorgeous, just like him (not implying he smells fishy or anything.) And my mum is truly the world's greatest too. Having decided to take advantage of the free accommodation and financial break that living in my mum's house in Kent will give us, I have been a bit worried that we are infringing on her "golden years" or that we are making the wrong decision to relocate. But on the phone last night she was horrified/amused at my worrying and assured me that not only were we not infringing but she was looking forward to us coming to stay immensely, that she was delighted to be able to help out and that she was excited about the prospect of having the house filled with the noise and mess of children again. And what's more we will have no ties to keep us from moving to our own place as we won't have to worry about ending tenancy agreements or selling up or anything like that. Hubby has just discovered that the on-call he does for work is not part of his contract so he will therefore be paid for it every time he does it. And I am about to apply for a new job that has come up at work, a grade above my own and more money. If I get it I will be on my enhanced rate of pay whilst on maternity leave. Things seem to be looking up, touch wood. I reckon we could be in a pretty good financial position by the end of 2006. Last night Hubby and I watched Celebrity Big Brother for about half an hour before we could take no more - they are all just completely mad! I even suggested watching the breastfeeding DVD as a more enjoyable alternative. But we settled on Star Wars instead (funny that.) I woke a lot during the night and had the worst dream about the end of the world and zombies, it was so REAL, I was terrified when I woke up. Today is not going to be a good day, I have some horrible little niggly bits to get out of the way this morning and then I have to minute a disciplinary hearing this afternoon, which I hate doing - so much negative energy flying about. I can't wait for today to be over so I can go home and knit. On a final note, I have developed a strange varicose vein type thing on my tummy. I will ask my scary midwife about it next Friday but the moderator on the Babyworld antenatal club seems to think it's nothing to worry about. But you can't help fretting can you? It hurts a bit. I looked it up in my What to Expect When You're Expecting and I think it might be "superficial thrombophlebitis" - a small blood clot which isn't serious. Hmm, hope it goes away. Friday (at last! woo hoo!) I had a dream last night that I was in hospital being induced and the midwives kept trying to get me to eat cold garlic chicken kievs. My mum was there and she was agreeing with them, which was really annoying me. The room was full of hundreds of people wondering about and Hubby kept disappearing. I woke up at 4am screaming for everyone to get out and that I only wanted my husband with me! I also kept waking up on my back and muttering to Hubby that I had to turn over or I'd "kill the baby". A very strange and active night for me. Unsurprisingly I was somewhat knackered this morning on the way to work, and I am feeling heavier and heavier every day. I don't usually make a huge thing about being pregnant on the tube but this morning I made sure it was obvious - lets face it it's hard to miss, my tummy is no longer curved into a bump, it's more of a gigantic sticky outy balloon attached to my front. The girl sitting immediately in front of where I was standing instantly pretended to fall asleep, the bloke to her right was suddenly immersed in his paper and the guy to her left, in the priority seat, stared at me googly eyed and then ignored me completely. The stupid thing is that all three of them got off at the next stop! Honestly. I always give up my seat for someone who needs it more than me and I never cease to be amazed at how selfish and awful the British public can be. Right, enough whinging. Last night I finished my fluffy pink hat, but I cast off too early and it's too small! So I will have to knit another one over the weekend, I'll keep the smaller one for my future daughter to wear when she's toddling! I also spent a considerable amount of time last night sorting out the filing cabinet in our spare room (soon to be nursery.) I emptied it of years of accumulated crap and then Hubby shifted it into the bottom of our fitted wardrobe in our bedroom, where it can still be used but it is completely out of the way. Don't know why we didn't think of it before. Tonight we are taking a great pile of stuff to my mum's to store in the loft, so the spare room is beginning to look less like a large store cupboard and more like it could actually be a bedroom. We're going to stay in Kent for the weekend, partly to get away from the noisy b**tards upstairs, and partly to make a start on decluttering my old room for when we move in the summer. I need to get it tidied and emptied so Hubby can decorate it in preparation. It'll be quite a cathartic and relaxing weekend I think. Saturday and Sunday: We headed to Kent on Friday night and spent a lovely weekend at my mum's. I managed to clear a load of stuff from my old room - five bags of rubbish, a load of other stuff for the tip and two bags for the charity shop. Still loads to do but I feel I made a good start. As soon as the room is emptied of my teenage possessions then Hubby can get started on decorating! Very exciting. My mum has picked a very very light lilac colour for the walls and has already installed gorgeous lavender blinds and white curtains with little lavender flowers on them. It's going to look great when it's finished and we shall be very cosy! I was so exhausted on Saturday afternoon that I fell asleep on the sofa. I feel a bit like I did in the first three months, not quite as bad but still really tired. I was sick on Saturday night - I just woke up in the middle of the night with excruciating heartburn and was sick in the bathroom. Most unpleasant. On Sunday we relaxed and did a bit more sorting out. Then we had pizza and headed back to our flat. Upstairs clomped about like they were auditioning for Riverdance from around 5pm until around 8pm. I honestly don't know how they manage to make so much noise. My boobs are growing more enormous by the day and I have stretch marks all over them. I only have one or two stretch marks on my tummy, though they're pretty severe. I decided to henna my expanded tummy. I do henna as a hobby and I had to copy the design for my tummy upside down, which was a bit awkward, but I was quite please with the results (piccies in Bumpwatch!) It's a picture of a peacock - which is the symbol for love, luck and prosperity. The Week 29 picture is also on Bumpwatch - I look totally knackered! Note the fabulous red PJ bottoms, I live in those at home at the moment! So, onto Week 30! Eeee!
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